It feels like forever since I posted last. My excuse was going to be that I have been really busy, but I don’t even know if that is true. I mean, it’s true, but I feel like there are other reasons, most of which I don’t really want to go into.
I have been extremely busy. That’s not a lie. I’ve been hired on a few new freelancing jobs, which is GREAT. Having to change my routine and relearn how to managing my time better has been a little stressful, though. I had gotten used to pretty much winging it each day, doing whatever pleased me and Squid.
Now that I have deadlines, I can no longer do that. We’re still having tons of fun, though, and it feels really good to be working so much. Besides the extra money, having work to do (other than laundry) gives me a deeper sense of purpose.
The other thing…the BIG thing…is that I’m pregnant again. I haven’t written anything about it since my original post announcing my pregnancy, and that’s been mostly because I haven’t been feeling all that great - physically, that is.
Emotionally, Jason and I are ecstatic. As with the conception of Squid, it happened so fast. We had barely finished discussing having another baby when I missed my period. I feel lucky to have been given what I’ve asked for so quickly both times. As my doctor says, I’m “super-fertile,” and knowing there is going to be another precious little stinko in our family is the most thrilling feeling on earth.
But, yeah, I’ve been sick and my body is already changing. And, of course, I’ve been extra-hormonal and just…off. Friday marked the end of my first trimester (and it was my birthday!!), however, and I’m pretty sure things are about to look up. The sickness is tapering off and now all I really feel is exhausted. Alas, my third excuse for not updating.
I have been sleeping like nobody’s business. In the afternoons, I’ll nap with Squid, and even nap while he’s watching Finding Nemo (his new favorite movie). I can’t help myself! It’s not even like I can shake it off or just postpone it. I just HAVE to sleep.
So, yes, there have been a lot of changes going on. The other stuff…the “blah” stuff that I don’t want to talk about…is just me feeling as though I need to put myself out there more in terms of making connections. I recently attempted to get in touch with one of my oldest and dearest friends. (We had a falling out a few years back.) Needless to say, it didn’t go very well. I feel more open than ever and completely ego-less. I have been humbled. But, she didn’t feel the same way, and now I have no choice but to give it up to the universe.
Still, it hurts. On a positive note, this experience reminds me that I have so much to offer and haven’t nearly reached my potential. In an effort to get out of my head, I’ve made some new friends and am really working hard on building stronger relationships with my current friends. I’ve been known to be quite the “hermit,” but that’s really no way to live.
Anyway, that’s all I can really say about that. With a new baby coming, it’s important to me to be around people who share and appreciate the same things I do.
Now, about my birthday… :)
It was awesome. Jason and I went to a French restaurant in Nob Hill - a teeny little place called Rue Lepic. It was romantic. My MIL watched the kids. We took advantage of her sleeping over, and after dinner, saw a late movie: Hellboy II. I thought it was good, but I would probably think anything was good. It felt so nice just being able to go to the theater on a date!
Jason bought me a bunch of Origins products: bath salts, lotions, powder, cleanser… He surprised me with a huge box of all sorts of stuff I’ve never tried. As I opened the containers one by one, he sat there next to me and told me what each smelled like and why he chose it. Isn’t that sweet? He actually took the time in the store to go through and smell everything! :) It brought a huge smile to my face.
On Sunday (two days after my birthday), he took me and Squid down to Tennessee Valley for a walk. We ended up at the beach and sat and played for a while. Then he took me to Target and bought me a pink Nintendo DS and two games. Yes! I love my new DS! It was a great weekend.
This week? More work. And more work. And hopefully, more posts. ;) Have a good one, everybody.
