Sadness

I didn’t feel sad yesterday when I broke down the playpen and put it in the shed. I didn’t even feel sad when I shuffled the rocking chair down the stairs and into the garage. But today is a different story.

Because Squid no longer has any need for these things, there’s no use having them around to clutter our already cramped house. But, seeing them gone from the living room this morning almost made me cry.

Yesterday, he learned how to get up on the couch all by himself. He also learned how to fall off the couch all by himself.

He knows how put coins in his piggy bank and when the toast pops up out of the toaster, he runs to the kitchen and puts his hands up to tell me he wants it.

I don’t ever wish he were younger or still a tiny baby. I just wish I had actually slowed down and appreciated his tininess a little bit more. I remember how I kept thinking how everyone was so wrong when they said that the days go by so fast. They didn’t go by fast for me then. Every day seemed to drag on forever and I was tired and frustrated and cranky.

But now those days seemed to have come and gone in an instant, and my little tiny baby is a boy who kicks and laughs and runs and dances. How did that happen?! It’s a strange mix of emotions.

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